vexed and perplexed
does anyone else feel paralyzed by indecision?
this is pretty much a theme of my life that God is revealing to me. I have become increasingly impaired by it (or increasingly aware of it) ever since I finished school. i know this age...this life stage is... inherently...a time of searching. a time of angst. and everyone is faced with confusion from time to time. forced to make a blind choice and learn by the consequences.
i just feel especially confused. kind of lost in corporate-land. flushing down 8 hours a day. day day after day.
I know God has a purpose for me. And I know that part of his purpose for me could be the actual search for my purpose...
which means that maybe my longing to do more (that is crescendo-ing daily) is part of his purpose after all. and it is developing in me a hunger...a hole...which will guide me to the shape...the type of work I will have to find to fill it.
can we count on fulfillment at work? especially at our age? is there a rule that we have to put in our time doing the less-than-satisfying work before we can do what we really want to do?
People say I'm indecisive, but I don't know about that.
•••George H.W. Bush
Each indecision brings its own delays and days are lost lamenting over lost days. . . . What you can do or think you can do, begin it. For boldness has magic, power, and genius in it.
•••Johann Wolfgang von Goethe